Blehhhhhhhhhhh

I'm sick, and yes I'm whining! I feel like someone beat the crap outta me with a baseball bat. :( I have tonsillitis again! I'm so bloody sick of it, this is the 3rd time in the last 6 months..grrrrrrrrr waiting for the antibiotics to kick in, hopefully that will be really soon. On the flipside of that I have an amazing bedside nurse :) he truly is incredible...anyhoo...
So you might have noticed I've done a bit of a blog overhaul, thought it was time for a change and I love the background!! Just need to work on a new header now :)
I've still been doing some scrapping but nothing I can share right now. I'm excited to say that Sara is relaunching Stuck?! which I'm pleased to say I'll be rejoining her creative team. Come on over and say Hi!
Another place you should drop by is the new Wicked Princess forum, Kaz and I are excited to launch our Ning site and are busily getting things organised for all our changes to take place on August 1st, we're hoping that you'll like them, nothing major out of this world but definate changes are happening, come join the forum and say Hi and tell us a little about yourself! You can find us HERE! Cant wait to share the sneek peeks for the august kits in the next few days ;)
I also have some more exciting news...one of the blogs I stalk is Mel Goodsell's blog, I find her to be the most inspiring blogger I read, she constantly makes me want to create things!! But the most exciting news, the one making me want to happy dance is she has opened an Etsy account!! YAYYYYYYYYYYYY I know where I'll be getting some of my christmas presents!! I love to give gifts that are homemade, and this is perfect cos I just love what Mel creates! You can check out her Etsy shop here :) Enjoy!
I'm off to take more pills and have some more sleep...catch you all soon.
xoxox

back again!

Told you I would be back!!! Just some more that I've been working on last night/today :)





Silly blogger, posted all my pics in the wrong order!\ Oh well, the first layout I really love how it turned out, wanted a simple layout that didnt overshadow the photo..not very often hubby and I get a photo together and this is our most recent one, taken 2 weeks ago at the P!NK concert! the quote on it is from my all time favouite movie The Notebook :)
The layout of Diva is to hang in her room and I loved the little random advice quote on it and thought it a good positive reinforcement for her to see often.
And the butterfly frame, well I've been wanting to do one of these for her room for a long time so the other week she was having a particulary bad day so her and I sat and created this..love that it's something we did together.
Be back again maybe tomorrow!
xoxx

Bad bad blogger...

Hi there...*waving hand cautiously in the air*
I'm still here, just been a bad bad blogger...see Lis I told you I would update!!
Whats been happening around these parts...hmm a lot but a little if that makes sense..I've been a little unwell and spent the good part of 5 days in hospital which wasnt pleasant but not something I had a choice in..we seem to have things under control for the most part for now..thank goodness..
Things have been going along ok with diva, we are working on a lot of new things for her which seem to be a positive step in the right direction, some days I just need a whole lot more strength to deal with it than what I have..but you just deal and keep going. Both her and Wonder boy got amazing reports...I'm so incredibly proud of them and their effort they put in to their school work, they both thrive on learning which I think is half the battle to be honest. Lil man is cruising along, letting all those in his path know that he is now 2 and can fip on a dime and throw the mother of all tantrums!! We are thinking its nearly time to put him in a bed, he seems to be getting taller by the minute!!!!
The other news is that I scrapped!!!!!!! Yes enter the angels singing..the girl scrapped!!! I made a point of taking time for me! God I loved it, felt so good to be doing it again..and guess what? I took pics to show on here!! uh huh nod your heads I am back!!





The first two are older ones that I don't think Ive shared on here. The last one I did yesterday and I really love how it turned out...I've had the paper sitting there for a while and what better way to ignore the miserable winter weather than to work on a summer layout!!!
I also have a couple of things to share that Ive been working on for Diva's room one I need to finish off today so I'll be back later to share them.
On that note I'm off to scrap again, I'll send the ambulance around now to resucitate you all from dying from shock!
Ciao bella!
xoxox

Spoilt...

So how was your mothers day? Mine was amazing...I got a wonderful lie in, then scrummy scrummy cuddles with my 3 babes and then a gorgeous cooked breakfast of mushrooms/tomatoes/spring onions/bacon/eggs...all weight watcher friendly of course :)
The kids were so excited about the presents they had got me from the Mothers Day stall at school! Diva gave me a small beauty case with a nail file in it..one side completely and I mean completely covered in rhinestones! *giggle* she thinks its fab! Wonder Boy gave me a big loofah on a handle for in the shower and lil man gave me some coasters that Diva picked out for him...tooo sweet really..I also got a keyring that Diva made me that says Mum and has a silver heart on it...it melts me when I see it...
I also got something else too, and if it sounds like Im being an upstart and a showoff please look away now...my gorgeous husband I come to find has been hoarding this is the back of his mind since Christmas...
I am now officially part of the Pandora club *insert squeal hereeeeeeeeee!* He loves me so...he really does, makes me feel so special and appreciated. The breakfast and the cuddles and lie in were more than I could have asked for..just that 5 mins to stop and enjoy the morning with my family..we need to do this more often...
So ummm this is the part where I get excited and show you my beads..honest Im not a look what I have look what I have girl but I just adore my bracelet!









Totally spoilt...I know...
Arent they just the cutest? so enters my new found addiction now LOL...
Ok I promise I'm done with showing off...
An update of my to do list..I started learning to crochet!! Just a couple of stitches but Im on my way!!! Just need to figure out how to do a corner now so I can make a square! Ive also started my search for some fabric for the quilt of love so if you have some links for some good online stores please send them on through!!

Chat soon lovelies..
xoxox

Back again

Here I am again...
Life just seems to busy at the moment and I dont seem to ever have a spare minute to sit down and blog! I have 5 mins spare now and probably the same amount of energy!
see our house needs to be quarantined Im convinced! We all have the damn lurgy in some form or other..Ive spent 3 days in bed, sleeping, no word of a lie..sleeping like 12 hour stints! I never do that..ever..poor wonder boy has cold sores on his face, Diva has a cough to rival an 80 year old smoker when she gets going, Lil Man finds it terribly amusing to bring me the contents of his nose and proudly declare yuck and Hunk is on the start of it...so yep we probably need to be quarantined!
Not a lot else happening, still working/wading through stuff with Diva, I cant quite see the end of it yet and Im barely hanging in there with it all but each day as it comes for now..
As for my to do list..well Ive sorted out some fabrics ready to make a quilt, just need to get a few more varieties and I can get started, I have a new printer that apparently prints amazing pics on fabric transfer paper so that will be handy for my quilt of love, Im thinking that I will make this for mum for Christmas..yes I said the dreaded word Christmas..but 90% of my gifts this year are going to be homemade so I want to get a start of it soon.
In other news..I scrapped!! I know, dont fall off your chair!! I'll post a pic another time dont really have the energy for it now LOL. I'm also ploughing my way through instructions to make a paper bag album, hopefully it turns out!
Found this song on another blog that I hop and read...it's just sublime...I love it.


Chat soon
T xoxo

Back again!

Told ya it wouldnt be so long between posts!
Also told ya I would have posting guilt! The last post was hard and probably a bit vented..the thing that was hard was it's hard to admit family will behave that way..and it hurts..a lot.
But I have decided after much deliberation...I cannot control how they behave..that's their responsibility, their emotions to sort through, not mine. I guess a part of me is disappointed that they can treat Diva and me like that but that's my issue to deal with.
That being said about them though, while I stand by what I wrote about Diva last week, this Mama has had her eyes prised riiiiiiiight open.. god raising girls is hard..this parenting thing takes it's toll LOL. It's too long and too confusing and complicated to get in to on here..shit I'm still trying to get my head around it all, but I'm on it..I'm getting it sorted..girls really are an entity of their own aren't they..LOL
Hunk and I have had lots of huge talks this week, once I composed myself and stopped being a blubbering mess and he could understand me..we need to stop and take stock, we have been cruising along for a while and while things are good, we aren't really connected, does that make sense? So we are stripping it back to basics..we use to live like this, basic and simple, and in some cases naive..but it was good.. not that our life isn't good now..it's great, he has a job that he loves, I'm building a business with what I love, we have fantastic friends, we live a good life..BUT..it's crazy busy, it's chaotic. There isn't the time to stop and find the good, our organisation has gone completely..we run constantly, so we need to get better organised, we need to become a stronger family unit again, we need to show unity. Hunk and I both don't like confrontation, particulary when it's family, we have the belief that family is incredibly important, and for some bizarre reason you don't confront them, you don't stand up and say, No you won't be treating her/me/us like that anymore, no I won't be your doormat...etc. But this is what needs to be done..sounds so easy when I type it. Time will tell.
I wish I'd started a gratitude project at the start of the year..I've been toying with the idea for a while, but always thought it was a bit sappy, a bit soft, if you get what I mean? not that I begrudged anyone that did one, I think that truthful part is that I knew I couldn't commit to it..anyone know what the ettiquite is on these? the guidelines? the rules? maybe I can just start one today?

On another note..I miss crafting..I haven't done any for such a long time, and when I did it was rushed. Im going to try and find time for me once a week to create something, anything!

I also have a to do list...a list I want to achieve in the next 6 months...Perhaps if I post it here I might actually do it hehe..
* Make a quilt of love
* Make or even bloody start a quilt for my nephew..
* Continue on my weight loss journey..weight watchers seems to be the program for me!
* Make a sign for a gorgeous friend's babe's room...(I should have already done this)
* Make a little something for another gorgeous friends desk.
* Make each of the kids a mini album with snippets throughout the year..

I think that's all I'll post LOL these seem achievable..maybe!! What's on your to do list?
Ok time to head off and make some soup!
Chat soon!

Long time...

between posts...sorry about that!
Been missing in action for a couple of reasons, work has kept me busy, kids have kept me busy, couldnt be bothered and my mind set hasnt been so great lately and I didnt want to come on here and share to be honest..it would have come out wrong and then I would have had posting guilt lol so was best to just avoid the existence of it all together!
So what's been happening you ask, wellll the website 'Wicked Princesses" is really taking off and I love it...really really love it. we have an awesome kick ass design team again, seriously these girls are uber talented and amaze me with the work they produce. They are all so committed to helping us make WP the best kit site there is. So girls..in my eyes you really are Rockstars!!!
Diva turned 8 on Friday and boy we've had a journey getting here! The last 6 months have been really hard actually, the whole bullying thing, then the not eating thing (which we seem to have squashed on the head), we finally seem to get on track, have her sorted she starts her dance classes for the year, the 3 that she was so looking forward to and then out of the blue she comes out and says she hates one of the classes, wants to quit etc etc ...hmmm ok...spoke to the teacher, she thinks its a confidence thing which it quite possibly could be,.Diva thinks she isnt good enough and that she cant do anything right :( probe some more in to it and I find out there is some girls in this class who are making her feel uncomfortable and like they are talking about her. Now I'm all for the theory girls are bitches etc etc blah blah but for fucks sake...enoughs enough, this kid has had enough...seriously more than what has been let on to people, and Im done, Im done with watching her heart hurt, Im done with the sheer nastiness of some of these kids. I dont know how to prepare her that yes in fact most of your life now sweetheart girls really are this mean. How the hell do you prepare for that??? So she sits and and concentrates really hard on her birthday guest list, deciding and choosing who she really really wants at her party..the only guidance I give her is go with who you think is truly your friend.. lets just say there is a couple who I wouldn't have chosen.
Wanna know what makes me and her daddy the most upset? There really truly is no one other than me and her dad that really know her...people see the tantrums..yes there are a few, they see the sulking occassionally and the see her being a normal little girl, but no one has really really looked at her...really taken the time to see that she is an incredible little girl who feels like she doesnt fit in the world, that she isnt meant to be here. they would see that she has a kind heart and takes things literally to heart, so if you have a worry it becomes her worry, her greatest joy is to see other people happy. If they looked and looked hard they would see that she has dreams, dreams that a lot of 8 year olds dont have...and they arent always nice.
They would see that she has a distinct smell, kinda like a warm summers day, that she can make my heart expand to the point it truly does skip a beat. And despite what you all think, no I dont think she is perfect, in actual fact Im a mother who is happy to admit her children have faults..but my god she is so perfect for her, her soul is so suited to her, she fits me, she fits our family, so while you stand there looking at her imperfections and the fact that she is a little girl who can throw the mother of tantrums, look deeper and see the incredible amazing little girl who deserves to be loved not criticised, and if you cant take the time to do that, then please walk away.

Wonder Boy-
Well there really isnt much to report on the front there..he is so cruisy, loving being back at school, finding the work more challenging but thats a good thing, he doesnt like it to be to easy but also doesnt like it to be to hard. We have started having him tutored once a week, just to help him with maths..she has been so great with him, she seems to be able to explain it in a way that he gets, she seems to get him which I love.
We had his allergy test and he has developed more allergies to sesame and hazelnuts, so the epi pen is now a very comfortable family member in this household and my bag!! He was really down about it to start with but now just accepts it and gets on with things!.

Lil Man-
He'll be 2 in a couple of weeks :( Yeah not looking forward to that, its going to fast and I want it to slow down, there are already little things about him being a baby Im forgetting. Although there is a part of me that is looking forward to the next stage, he is starting to talk more and more and has the funniest personality..he is actually quite hmmm eccentric for want of a better word...he will be affectionate when he wants to, be talkative when he wants and is completely one hundred and fifty percent more comfortable in his own space.

Hunk-
YUP, what can I say, I adore this man, he has never once flatered in his support of me and particulary of late...Ive not been myself and things have upset me, and yet there he is right by my side.
He works far to hard for my liking but he wont be told and is a complete workaholic!
but on the flipside of that he is a great provider for our family and wants to be able to give his kids everything he can in his capacity. So Thankful for him

Me-
Blah...cant say things have been that great of late, ever feel like you've walked in on a conversation and there is that uncomfortable silence and awkward tension?? yup welcome to my life of late..Im getting over it, moving forward but fuck it was hurting for a little while there, at this point in my life I didnt think that it was meant to be this hard, apparently i live in a fantasy world, who knows...but I have learnt this in the last few weeks/months. I am a fantastic person, I may not always be what you want me to be but I am a good kind hearted person, I do not need ego boosting but I'm not an overly confident person and some days I do have down days, its my personality, its who I am and I refuse to harden up. I dont need the bitching that life throws at me anymore, I will not be anyones door mat anymore, I refuse to be used anymore, relationships require 2 people in them and that requires a happy balance of positive energy, not one person doing all the energy and the other taking it. This is who I am now, if people dont like it, I wont change it. It's about time I stood up for myself and said "you know what? you make me feel worthless" "No, I cant help you right now" Part of me is terrified that all the people I care about will walk, but then a part of me thinks well if they walk because Im honest then they arent meant to be a part of my life. I need to do this because its hurting me to much to not, its not fair on me and its not fair on Hunk let alone my kids.

So there you have it, thats whats been going on, Im probably going to have posting guilt after this and well I'll deal with it, nice to get it off my chest.
Promise it wont be so long between posts next time!
T xoxo

So many lives...

so many lives lost in the bushfires..I cannot begin to tell you how devastated I am about this...far to many lives...it's just beyond tragic and heartbreaking...
The community spirit of Australia is just amazing though..everyone is pulling together to help support the victims, from monetary donations to clothes, bedding food you name it, it's arriving by the truckloads..makes me so incredibly proud to be an Aussie.
I came across this on Sares blog and wanted to share it all with you...please if you think you can help get in touch with sares..everything will help..these people literally have nothing right now.

if you think you can help, even if its just one page please head over to Sare's blog HERE
Please keep everyone in your prayers too...