Terrified....

"Diva, why aren't you eating? why is your lunch box still full?"
"I'm not hungry mum"
"But there must be a reason why you aren't hungry, your drink bottle is still full"
Yep this was my conversation with my 7 year old daughter last night at the table, after pushing and pushing a very angry little girl yells "Because I dont want to get fat"
I can taste vomit...I feel sick...omg she is only 7 why the hell would she be saying that....so we go along and talk about this, the whole time I am terrified, sick, terrified again I explain to her that in order for her heart to work ok and her organs and stuff she needs to eat and drink.. Her response? "But I just want to be middle size mum, I dont want to get fat" :(
This is so much bigger than me and my "I think I'm doing ok" mothering skills...

We do have a plan of attack so to speak...I'm organising outside help, this isnt something I can just sit back and think its a phase...if it is awesome, and i cant wait for it to end..if its not Im gonna need a whole lot of strength to get through this.

I'm terrified....