Some times things are just crap. :(

Well I have had a crappy crap day, two of my dearest friends had their regular Pap smear tests and both of them ended up having to have a biopsy. One of them has high grade cancer cells which will either need to be lasered off or she will end up having a hysterectomy. What a crap outcome. I mean I know that this is the better option and all other than cancer but I mean hell it makes me so sad to think about it. Then my other friend phones me and tells me she needs to go and get hers lasered off. What the hell is going on? 2 of my friends have this and I feel so damn helpless to them. I smile at them and tell them its going to be ok and then no sooner have they left and I think about them and the tears start.
I just hell I dont even know what I want to say, my heart feels so heavy for them both and for their families. I do know that they are going to be ok though, its just the process of getting there that sucks the most.

Aren't Dreams Funny?

Dreams are funny things aren't they? I mean we can dream all sorts of things, and then there are nights where we dont dream at all or at least to our knowledge we dont because we dont remember them when we wake up!
Take the other week for instance, I dreamt about a very good friend of mine-yes it was a female! And yes it was quite an explicit dream !!!!! Which disturbed me a little, I mean I have never been "into" females so needless to say we I woke up I was a little freaked out about it!!
So I casually mention to her that I had a dream about her and she preceeds to ask the details about it. We chat about it and she thinks its a great joke, informs her partner and they have a lovely little giggle at my expense! So now it has grown to my husband knowing as well so the 3 of them thinks its great to have little digs at me like "sweet dreams tonight!" "Think of me as you go to sleep!" So now I have concluded that I will no longer be telling them if I have any more of those dreams again! And I hope to God I dont!!
But then we have dreams that make no sense at all and are just in bits and pieces, no rhyme or reason to them whatsoever. Go figure!!
Maybe I just need to go to sleep earlier and then I wont have such weird ass dreams, that either A-Freak me out or B-Make no sense at all!!
So thats the challenge I'm setting myself this week to aim to be in bed at a reasonable time and go to sleep at a reasonable time. And I figure to do that I need to either go to bed before my DH or put them baby making plans on hold for a week while I try and get some sleep!!!!!!
Easier said than done LOL!!!

Mum, you crack me up!

You know, I have just had one of those days, the alarm went off and I rolled over and hit the snooze button which can be a common occurance most mornings!! Well when I did wake up again I realised that the time was 7.45am not 6.45am which is when i should be dragging my butt out of bed. But I had a late night last night and should have been asleep a hell of a lot earlier that I was! LOL! Bearing in mind we need to leave the house by 8.40am!! So here I am running around like a mad woman, shouting out directions like a captain of a ship when my darling little boy starts laughing and cannot seem to stop! My madness comes to a screeching halt to ask him what is so damn funny when we are running late, and all he can respond in between fits of giggles is "Mum you crack me up!" "Your running really fast, kinda like road runner on the cartoons"
Well that was it, I dissolved in to giggles as well, then we were joined by my daughter who just thinks her big brother is the funniest thing in her life! Never mind she had no idea why we were laughing!
But we still managed to get lunches made, uniforms on, breakfast, teeth, hair etc done and be out the door by 8.43am, and I even managed to get the beds all made!!
My son then says to me in the car, "Mum your kinda like Wonder woman too" "She's really cool!" Talk about make a woman feel good about herself!
I guess I am a bit like Wonder woman in a way!! I guess all mothers are, we have so much to deal with and get organised, yet we somehow manage to do it. It's almost like its inbuilt in us, like our destiny to just know how to be a mother. Not saying that I'm perfect at it but thats ok too, I like that somedays I can just feel my way through it and other days, I know I am in complete control of the situation, and then there are the days where I am a little bit of road runner and Wonder woman all rolled in to one! And I'm pretty damn happy with that, nothing wrong with being a super hero! especially in the eyes of your children
So now that its 10.36pm I am about to put in another load of washing, unpack the dishwasher, wake my sleeping husband from the couch and head off to bed, so that another chaotic day can start!! Here's hoping I dont hit the snooze button in the morning!

Well here we go!

Well, I've finally done it! I've created a BLOG!! Thanks to the link from Dawn.
I'm not sure how much of this everyone will find interesting! But hey at the very outside you get a look in to my chaotic lifestyle!
Hence the name of my Blog-"My Pandemonium"
Its funny how busy life can get, somedays just whizz by and then others you really need to stop yourself to actually enjoy the moment.
I'm heading up to my 30th birthday at the end of this year, and you know I kinda forgot that I was getting that old!! I mean I knew how old I was but then one day I sat back and thought, gee its really coming, I'm really going to be 30!!! (Mind you I had to have a few red wines to calm the nerves about it all!!) but then I figured I would just ride it, and so now I'm actually looking forward to turning 30!
Everyone keeps telling my that it only gets better from here on in, and if it does I'm in for one hell of a ride! Because even when you take out some of the crap thats gone on in my life, its already been absolutely fantastic!!
So there you have it, my first blog entry not terribly exciting but hey this is me wrinkles and all!!