Well it's over

for another year..the wrapping paper flew, there was squeals of delight, there was ooohing and ahhhhing and generally everyone had a fantastic day....the downside of it all is I have an extremely cranky 8 month old which is the result of over doting grandparents and aunts and uncles who think its ok to friggen hold him all the time!
I was very spoilt, my hubby is so good to me! check it out!!

The green one..I love love it!!

I love this perfume, he gave me the gift pack of it and it smells divine..
I also got some new tops, and adaptor for my ipod and a new robbie williams book!
The kids were spoilt rotten...i adore the magic they bring to christmas..makes me feel alive!
So here we are..chrissy pics for you all!








Hope you all had an awesome christmas guys...I'm on the countdown for my birthday now..3 days to go and I'll be 32..not sure how I feel about that!! ah well never mind! can't change it, so might as well embrace it!! LOL
Be good chickens!
Love Tam

Hopes

and prayers right now are so desperately needed..
I never thought I would have to say this..
I have had the most awful weekend that I am never going to forget..
My sis and her husband have been seperated for a couple of months, and he had the boys for an access visit this weekend, from 10am Saturday till 4pm Sunday...

he never brought them back
He has done a runner with them, she has no idea where they are or whether they are safe..because they hadn't been to family court yet there is nothing the police can do...

And apparently this morning he applied for full custody...she may not see them again before the end of the year, and to which the family courts close over christmas so it may not be till February that it all gets heard..

I cannot stop crying, I feel so sick, and so damn freakin helpless, my baby sister is going through hell and there is not a damn thing I can do to help her right now..I just want to see my nephews again..they are only 2 and 1...

If you could please keep them in your thoughts and the rest of us to I would really appreciate it...it's freakin christmas next week...they should be here....they need to be here....
My heart feels like it has literally been broken in two..my poor baby sister..her whole world is shattered, all she wants to do is hold her babies, smell them, tell them she loves them and that no-one can ever hurt them again...

I'm trying so hard to keep it all together, but to be quite honest, I'm struggling, I look at my beautiful kids and try to fathom, try and imagine how she must be feeling right now..I adore my nephews, anyone that knows me can verify that...
My eldest nephew calls me Aunty Flash..(yep forever poking a camera in his face!) thinks superman is the coolest thing on the planet and has the most to die for eyes, I swear you look in to them and its like looking at a pool of chocolate, they are beautiful..I miss that, I want to look him in the eye and tell him I love him, that I am so sorry that this has happened, I would kill to hear lub you flash..miss you flash..
And my gorgeous little peanut..with his beautiful baby face, he still has so much about him that says he is a baby, yet I look at him and he has just started walking and he is so not a baby anymore, his sweet kisses that he gives you, he lingers for just a second pulls away and grins..and his grin is gorgeous..it automatically makes you feel alive. And he has this 'thing' he does..he can be throwing the biggest tantrum on the floor but as soon as he sees me with camera in hand, he rolls over and gives me the butter wouldn't melt in my mouth grin!

So my darling boys, Aunty Flash is fighting tooth and nail to get you home to mummy, home with her where you belong..I will do whatever it takes, push whoever needs to be pushed, pay whatever needs to be paid and beg borrow and steal if thats what needs to happen. I am helping Mummy do everything in her power to have you home for christmas..home with your family..a family that thinks you are 2 of the best things to come in to our lives..we will never use you as pawns, never use you to be spiteful..we just want to love you and care for you...

Go hug your kids, thank whoever it is that you search for higher answers to and pray that this situation doesnt continue for much longer...if I have my way it sure as hell wont.
I'm out..worn down, emotionally beaten but finding this incredible inner strength to help my sister fight the biggest battle of her life which unfortunately i can't fight for her..
believe me baby if I could, I honestly would do this for you, but for now I need to be beside you making sure you put one foot in front of the other and take each minute as it comes and deal with the hurdles he is placing in our way..

Take care of you and yours..
Tam

It's beginning to look a lot

like christmas! Well actually not a lot, a whole damn study worth! Yep it is official, Spotlight and Lincraft and my LSS have exploded in my study..there is little 2 feet of standing room and that's it..I have felt and papers and adhesives and stamps and reindeer food all in there little areas all over the study..have been on a christmas roll lately, which has been great but has also been very time consuming...
Ahhh yes the time factor..I really am time poor these days, and even more so the last couple of days, my poor little man is teething so bad, he is absolutely miserable and just sobs all day and night, panadol and bonjella just dont seem to be having any effect at all. Breaks my heart every time he looks at me with those beautiful eyes with tears rolling down his cheeks :( Bloody teeth, hopefully it will cut soon.
I am almost finished with the gifts for Dec 25th..almost being that I have a lot of them started and half finished and just a few that need to be started, most presents are wrapped and under the tree already,which Harrison takes great delight in rolling over to pull the pretty bows off and suck them, no-one will mind the drool will they?? LOL
I adore ready Kayla's blog right now..that girl seriously finds the cutest stuff to post, she has pics of felt owls..which I adore posted on there and pics of felt gingerbread people, I am dying to get the felt out to try these out, but have banned myself until I have finished the present making. I would link you to her blog, but well I am a link spaz and cannot seem to make it work LOL but it is on the right hand side if you want to mozey on over and check out her blog!
Which brings me to my next ramble! I found this on Kayla's blog and thought I'd play!
1. Wrapping paper or gift bags?Wrapping paper- I love it...love prettying it up with curling ribbon and handmade gift tags!

2. Real tree or artificial?We have 2 artificial trees, one for the kids and one for me..oh yeah and DH LOL
3. When do you put up the tree? I am so bad at waiting till Dec 1st so generally it's mid November sometime
4. When do you take the tree down?Depends when I have five minutes to do it!
6. Favorite gift received as a child? Hmmmm, probably my bike and rollerskates..yep I seriously was one rockin chic hahaha

7. Do you have a Nativity scene?No, because apparently I am to damn fussy and cant find a nice fabric one I like!

8. Hardest person to buy for?I honestly dont know!

9. Easiest person to buy for?Scott

10. Worst Christmas Gift you ever received?A tea towel from MIL.blah

11. Mail or email Christmas cards?definately mail, everyone loves happy mail

12. Favorite Christmas Movie? Miracle on 21st Street

13. When do you start shopping for Christmas?Probably around feb, I start to rummage for some bargains

14. Have you ever recycled a Christmas present? Never

15. Favorite things to eat at Christmas? Roast lamb and seafood


16. Clear lights or colored on the tree? Clear fairy lights, about 800 of them!

17. Favorite Christmas song?Santa Baby!

18. Travel at Christmas or stay home?Definately no travelling from this little elf!


19. Can you name all of Santa’s reindeer? Dasher, Dancer, Prancer, Cupid, Blitzen, Comet, Vixen..rudolph??? oh dear that is bad isnt it!

20. Angel on the tree top or a star?Angel on mine..oh yeah and DH's and star on kids

21. Open the presents Christmas Eve or morning? The kids open their presents from us Christmas Eve, then when they have gone to bed DH & I exchange one gift..the rest are on Christmas Day


22. Most annoying thing about this time of year? That it has to be the latest toy in the stocking and the most money spent, makes it hard to teach the kids the real joy of christmas..family time

23. What is the “silliest” family tradition you do, or miss doing? We dont really have one LOL

24. Ugliest Christmas Decoration ever invented?Oh there are some shockers out there


25. Which looks best, theme trees or homey trees? Personal taste..I change the color of our decorations every year

26. Gingerbread or sugar cookies?sugar cookies...i hate ginger ginger is blah!

27. Do you like Fruitcake?ick ick ick need I say more!

Would love to see some of your answers!!
No pics to share today..haven't uploaded any LOL..
ok off to bury myself under craft supplies..if I dont surface before Dec 25th, someone send out the search party!!
christmas wishes and happy ho ho ho's to you all!
Love Tam

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Christmas Chaos

has ensued in this household!! Every year I seem to get busier and busier..it's damn near crazy how busy I've been the last couple of weeks..whose bright idea was it to make presents this year?? oh that's right..MINE!! LMAO well no seriously I really do prefer to give a homemade gift, and especially when I know I have spent the time to really think about what they would like to recieve. I can't divulge the gifts Ive been making as some of the recipients read this blog!
Aside from christmas chaos, life has been hectic, Diva has had rehearsals for her ballet recital which we had last night, I loved it! the best thing we ever did was swap her to a new dance school, the look on her face while she was on stage last night made her proud mama tear up..she was a snowflake in the nutcracker dance and a hairy who, for her Jazz dance which was based on Dr Suess! fantastic night really!!
Puddin chops is trying desperately to crawl and getting very very cranky because he cant get his body to do what he wants it to!!
Wonder Boy is so full of attitude at the moment, I'm really ready to tear my hair out..please tell me it gets better! LOL
So it's our turn to do Christmas Day here this year, which has worked out perfectly being that it is H's first christmas...tradtitional lunch and then a seafood dinner is order I think!
As for me..well I'm working on me..I'm trying really hard to learn how to say No to people, and I'm sorry but I have so much on I couldn't possibly fit that in..yep so far not working and am hitting meltdown mode LOL..happens every bloody year!!
Maybe next year I'll learn..doubt it but for now I'll live in my delusional world!
Huge big smooches to my girls Stac and Shan...Stac you are still so freakin cute..I cant wait to see your baby bump pics when you get bigger darlin! I miss you truckloads honey! Shann...I miss you so freakin much!!! I'm so glad you found me on here!! can't wait to catch up with you some more darlin!!
So I'll leave you with some piccies..then I better run off, have another 20 bags of reindeer food to make..yet another tradition that has been going in this household for the last 8 years!
Smooches to all your christmas cuties!
Love Tam!
My Christmas Tree!


Layout of the Puddin!


Christmas Photos!